So this is my first entry. I am not writing this blog for any reason. I just have a racing mind and need a semi-safe place to put it. I feel like I am waiting for some big event in life. I have been in a relationship for three years and it is hard not to have expectations. I think girls are programmed to want this fantasy.  You know man, kid, car, and house. Yikes, am I being too pissy about it. Sometime I wish I could join a convent. No men and no sexual worries. I think that I would find a way to think about them anyways.